Throughout all this, I really need to try and keep my feet on the ground. I need to remember how lucky I am to have the people around me willing to deal with me and this situation that I’ve found myself in…not to mention it’s affect on me and the way I’m behaving. I feel as though I used to be like this. Anxious, upset if things didn’t work out exactly as I planned, and then I mellowed out and it’s as if I just went backwards. But here’s the thing. You know you can be that way. Let it go, don’t worry about other people’s shit. If things don’t work out, what is the worst that can happen? You’re okay. And lucky (mostly lucky).
Been feeling crumby lately for no particular reason, I’ve sort of been forcing myself to actually get out of bed everyday instead of just saying “fuck it” and being consumed by sleep and TV….so I want to note how great this Sunday was/is. Had a lovely congregation of friends/boyfriends/friends of roomies/roomies boyfriends in the kitchen this morning and we all chatted and re-capped our nights while making and eating our respective breakfasts, went to Planet Bean with some favourites and did some homework, went grocery shopping and made (attempted to make) a delicious Sunday night dinner, and then I’ll go to yoga later on.
This has been a boring list of post, but it is worth noting since I felt nothing, but happy and content all day which I think is a new record for the last month or so. Love the people around me to death.